Case of the "I wants" with a side of lost

There are so many ways I've heard it. We all have. "If you want something go out and get it." "you can have it if you really want" etc... Then you see people just get things handed to them, granted some people deserve it and others just don't. It's like a rich person winning the lottery, it's not the happy ending sort of feeling you get in the movies but stone cold reality. Constant Murphy's Law. We all know that the hardest part of getting what you want is the part where you have to get up. Why is it only ourselves that prevents us from doing this? Why are we our own worst enemy? Today I can't seem to get out of my own way, again stuck in this fucking chair looking for an answer to the question we all ask ourselves "what is it I really want?" Shaking my head a lot, the cup is half empty kind of day.. I know whatever "it" is wont just fall on my lap, I've never been so lucky.. Or have I? The grass is always greener right? But in some cases, it is.. What do I want to do? and what do I have to do to get it? I'm on a real life quest I suppose. I know who I am and what I like, I just need to find out what it is I want to do..I'm beyond lost...chasing my own tail.. running from my own shadow..